Forecast says there won't be so much sunshine today. heay rain maybe.

I have a lot in my mind. till i can't put all of that in words without hurting someone.

so, i get the conclusion through this... click here!

p/s: saya sudah mendaftar. anda?

cuba kekal tegar.

sekuat jeritan mana pun suara, sedetail mana pun fakta, sedalam mana pun pemahaman, mereka-mereka mungkin tidak mampu faham. it's just because they are not in my shoes. 


kata-kata si kawan ini benar belaka. setelah saya digest sampai ke lubuk hati saya sedar akan kesilapan yang satu ini. mungkin banyak kesilapan disitu. walaupun masih terdapat keraguan sana sini. saya patut sedar, apa yang saya lalui, apa yang saya perolehi adalah terbaik buat saya. BERSYUKUR is the key. terima kasih kepasa si kawan yang memberi wake up call.  

anyway, cakap dimulut memang senang. ayuh mulakan dengan tindakan. 

it can't get anymore funnier.

what has happened or should i say happening to me then and now is so very funny that i could not jot down any cause it were so complicated.

thank you  for doing that to me
thank you  for treating me that way
thank you  for the heart breaking
thank you for the harsh words.
thank you for the friendship-to-be- end
thank you for EVERYTHING.
AND
thanks to your  **** for making it realistic


you never thought of this could happen to you. but yes it happening and AGAIN.

I need to be really careful. So very easy to fall into traps like this.

Anyhow, alhamdulillah.

I might just be wrong. Still, I am not going to take any risk.

 Allah knows best!

"....Ya Allah, andai kau datangkan mereka ini sebagai ujian buat ku, maka berikanlah aku kekuatan & kesabaran untuk menghadapinya. Ampunkan dosa hambaMu andai ujian ini sebagai memo peringatan akan kelalaian diriku pada Mu. Selamatkanlah aku dari fitnah & tipudaya manusia, serta hawa nafsu dan godaan syaitan yang direjam...

 

P/S:  beribu berjuta kali maaf pun ia tetap tak akan ubah apa-apa. mungkin.

stop trying to please everyone. get your own way please!

can i skip the whole thing??

life getting miserable tougher. we need to be realistic in life. we just can't please everyone. saya manusia lemah yang ada batas dalam setiap perlakuan.saya faham itu. but it's not a wrong doings when we were trying to make something batter for others. not seeking for attention or a sympathy  but just wanna have a warm relationship. after all had happen, maybe i can come out with it. it's just my thought somehow.  --->

If you’re trying to live up to all the expectations that crowd in on you from parents, friends, and society at large .you’ll end up feeling miserable because you’re not living the life you want to, and you’ll inevitably not manage to meet all the competing demands.

no one else in this world knows what goes on in your head.you can't lift a flap and peek or fit inside their skull  either. so, zuraini sayang boleh tak awak berpijak di bumi yang nyata sekarang.

p/s:  i'm totaly a great LOSER when come to mari menari berkawan sana sini bersama org melayu. SIGH!

ABAH balik arini YEAY!!!!

yesterday was fun. dating with all the girlfriends really bring out my day. we have the come-back- to -school trip, meeting with the teachers, updating current doings, siam express for lunch and lastly the transformers.

at school
* dari jauh, sambil melambai-lambai*

pn cheok: nor zuraini zulkifle.
me: OMGGGGG!!!
pn cheok : your expression seem so shock.. why?
me:  super glad you remembered my full name..
pn cheok:  . you're the tudung girls hangs with the non tudungs. so, i hardly can remembered you zuraini. and look till today you're still the same.
me: LOL's.

 

everything seemed so simple when i was younger.

 life?
sederhana. tapi sempurna. ALHAMDULILAH.



namun. saat hidup bahagia seadanya dengan keserderhanaan ini. tiba-tiba hati terasa diuji. Mungkin menjengah sebagai amaran atau peringatan di hari muka. LIFE. percaturan hidup ini hanya boleh dikawal arah tujunya tapi tidak sesekali mampu untuk kita melawan destiny-nya.

saya dan kehidupan saya, seringkali diuji.but, i am strongly believe in life cycle.  sometimes you will be on the top of the world and sometimes you will experience to be the looser.  tiap kali diuji saya akan sumbat kan kata-kata ini ke telinga, saya akan kepilkan kata-kata ini di hati, saya akan tatapkan kata-kata ini di mata. dimana. hikmah itu ada pada setiap apa yang berlaku.
dengan harapan semoga otak dan hati will always be synchronize. berirama seiring senada.  sejujurnya sakit kali ini tidak setajam dulu, mungkin saya sudah menyangka ini akan berlaku. salah siapa. tunjuk jari itu ke dia, empat jari balik ke diri.  serve you right!

saya  tidak pernah mengimpikan hidup yang sekarang. But at the end of the day, as I fall in love (if love has ANYTHING TO DO with this lah cuz i rasa macam 'ya'), I suddenly see life in different perspective now. Brighter than ever. Alhamdulillah. Don't mind the hurt, because all that I want is the state of bliss that comes with it.

saya dan kisah hati juga diuji. Bila terasa ingin mengalah, saya fikir, saya akan jadi lebih terluka melepaskan sesuatu yang sekian lama. Sesuatu yang mampu buat sebahagia ini - satu jenis bahagia yang sendiri tidak pernah bayangkan. I won't ever let go even if it hurts a thousand times more. The kind of feeling I wish words can really explain. Dan saya bukan spesis orang yang tegar menyumpah seranah begitu sahaja. pour a sympathy towards something is one of my weaknesses.  

YOU need to be selfish to live and love happily. Unless YOU choose not to be happy :)

How everything seemed so simple when I was younger. But this is also a sign how much now I'm a grown up

mari cari persamaan. *MATA*

waktu dan masa pun berlalu

ok, let's talk about one fact of LIFE.
 NO MATTER WHAT HAPPEN, LIFE GOES ON.

have you ever cross that statement?? that was my philosophy, my mantera, my motto dan kata-kata semangat saya..
setiap kali kawan saya atau saya sendirilah jatuh tersembam ke bumi, sakit parah terguris hati, saya selalu suapkan kata di atas kepada mereka-mereka ini.selalu saya katakan, di mana this tough time will pass by, you have to accept what has be written to you. terima dengan redha. for this time being  there is the only way we can do..we need to just live the life. teruskan hidup.

what else we can do??? you can't stop the time while you are trying to figure out the solution, you can't pause the time while you are trying to fix up the prob, you can't fast forward the time so that you can skip the part yang you dislike so that you can life happily ever after and you can't rewind you life and redo the things that happened to make it batter. IMPOSSIBLE. kerana biar apa pun yang terjadi, bumi sentiasa akan berputar, berputar pada paksinya. manusia sekeliling terus dengan agendanya, matahari masih memancar sinar uv nya, bulan masih akan timbul di kala malam.

biarlah earth quake melanda NZ
biarlah hazama menang 200 ribu
biarlah BERSIH melanda bumi malaysia
biarlah Kenny dihentam MPSP&MPPP

all the list above wont give a pause to time. not even a sec pause. Jadi wahai kamu, saya dan semua mari move forward. mula langkah pertama dengan niat..leave all the shit behind, try heal the wound, keep moving and moving till the the end.

ATI looked messy sebab tengah buat pilihan. nak ikut kakngah balik umah ke tak???

twenty one

salam
new entry after entitle myself a 21 old young ladies.

ALHAMDULILAH. safely home after 1 week bercamping di teluk ramunia. GREAT MEMORIES, GREAT PLACE, GREAT EXPERIENCE. enjoyably moment! =)
 
kali ini saya mahu berbicara perihal PILIHAN ITU.
life is about making a decision. Starting when you want to pick your outfit in the morning, di office pula what task should you fulfill first and pilihan itu terus menerus menghimpit sampai sebelum mata tertutup, surah apa nak baca malam ini. These tiny choices becoming your daily routine betul. setiap hari mesti tanya diri dulu apa nak pilih.
sometimes, we make the pilihan itu nampak susah.. padahal ianya mudah saja. ibarat what number should i dial to ring kekasih hati? 013 or 019? infact you just know, whenever or whichever num yang you dial pasti akan dipick up oleh kekasih hati.So, pilihan itu perlu kah. silly.silly.

tetapi kadang kala pilihan itu amat besar. a huge one. sampai otak, hati,serta pelbagai organ lain perlu diguna pakai untuk membuat pilihan itu agar the chosen one adalah sebaik-baik pilihan dan mampu menidakan apa-apa jua kecelakaan di kemudian hari.

ISTIQARAH mereka kata.  tetapi  malam masih muda. the journey is still loooggg way to go.. i have much to fulfill, i got a lot to tune in, i want to run for everything and i need to patten out the future..  so, can i hold that for this moment. i guarantee when the right time come i assure istiqarah will definitely in my list. but for now, i am not ready. *beb, you know who you are and  if u tend to find out this please advise me for this.

so for now just stick to the one.the one yang selalu tanpa henti memberi peringatan juga ancaman. ancaman manja katakan.
 
TAPI, pilihan untuk menyertai BERSIH adalah satu pilihan bodoh. The most silly decision ever exist. stay away from yellow color.  !!!!!!!!