it's the time to say good bye ...

 im pretty sure every one is talking about the late 2010 and the upcoming 2011.
 all sorts of kenangan and watsoeve. but for this entry i will prefer not to doing that.

just to mention here in off to uni tomorrow. mak and abah will send me off as usual. drive penang-johor pity them
i just hate this feeling. leaving home just make me sick. sumpah. sangat tak suka. i know i am like a cry baby. SHAME ON ME!

oh my baby Georgetown. i gonna miss you like hell. will miss the  food. mamak stall. chinese cuisine and the most mak's superb delicious food.  ok that's the reason why i gained weight like hell too. * guilty*

so it's  time to say good b

girls day out!!!

i had my great time with my high school girlfriends..  it was simply the best moment.. we started our date with some warm out activity.. guess what! we go for hiking you all.. hahaha that was crazy, we climb up the botanical garden mountain hill and it take us about 30 minute  to brings us the amazing n fantastic scenery of our beloved PENANG. after we manage to burns our fatty a.k.a calories then we drop by to SHAMIM'S house for us to  clean up our self to look batter and smell batter too..

we have our lunch at DELI'S DAVE restaurants in queensbay. the stick was superb DELICIOUS and the price  are also reasonable. Then the next activity is for  movie time. TRON LEGACY. this movie was awesome. we plan to watch in 3D but the price was totally insane. then we pick the normal version. 

after all,  i enjoyed myself with them. we had our talk about what we up to. current doings  and our future plans.

p/s. kawan2. i think you know who your are. i love this bond of us. i hope we can be friends for the rest of our life. friends forever. <3

p/s/s:  felt really bersalah pada kekasih hati... sorry. SORRY. sorry.  huuuu

.after eclipse.

i want to be wiser
i want to be cleaver
i want to be thinner
i want to be nicer
i want to be happier

i wanna make this world a batter place to live on.
left a few days to kickstart my new semester. well, i really need to figure out my 2011 resolution..
catch out another time with my 2011 RESOLUTION.


P/S just had a conversation with KEKASIH HATI. feel much-much batter. 
P/S/S  reading QASEH-ANISA blog really bring out my day!!!!! terimakasihkawan. i apperiaciate this  new bond.

Forgive one another; rather, understand one another.

 respect others life and it will honor you. 

i always believe in this quote. 

and this certain of time i can see how it work and sparks on me

i have been in this situation* where you put a hope and trust to this person. she/him play a fool towards your trustfulness. you are deadly believe what he/she said or claimed to any things he/she wants. how sick and hurt you are when you figure out she/him is making fool of you. feel like you wanna throw a tantrum towards him/her. but i perfectly believe this, what has happen no matter in bad or good ways there is a reason behinds it. so i do not easily and simply freak out and starts to blame people. well, some people say dah terang lagi bersuluh dia salah so that is nothing wrong if you wanna be mad  or marah macam orang gila . to notice that people that you are not a person who are easily be to fool around. TAPI, every people include US are not slip to done mistakes. so do this people asalkan he/she aware of his/her wrong doings and willing to correct it then forgiveness and a second change are just for them..

back to the situation, how i deal to this kind of people. well, everyone reserve to seek forgiveness.. so forgive and move the life on.. that's the keys.

  with the forgiveness i live happily with all the loveones. 

P/S: people, im sorry for any wrong doings that i ever made. ='(

*situation above are not referring to anyone here. no offense k. 

next step higher...

 im turning into 21 next year.. according to emak this stage of age back to those years  la kan perempuan-perempun or should i mention as young ladies sudah boleh dimenantukan.. DIMENANTUKAN* ( did  this word can be accepted  oleh kamus bahasa ) ZURAINI-PEROSAK-BM-THANK-TO-MY -BM-TCER-PN WEI... hihihi  ok2 back to main point! dimenantukan refer to berumah tangga or getting married to someone that called SUAMI/HUBBY. well, mak's ideology can still be accepted these era because one of my high school friends is getting married soon.. YESSSS KAHWIN !  what a brave decision.impressive.  i would like to admit sometimes when there is the time bila hormone gatal came and attack, felling mahu-kawin-sekarang-juga-dengan -kekasih hati appear.  but still bila the level of conscientious/kewarasan come and rescue me to chase out itu hormone gatal i will realize  kawin its not just a playful thing to be play around. its full of  a responsibility or can i say it as burden that u have to carry on sampai ke akhir hayat. well, this girl is really brave enough to upgrade her life to next step higher .. well done my friends. at least you can be the "batu loncatan" for the rest to start thinking that actually we need to really workout a future plan of ours. i mean a really serious one. but don't underestimate this friend of mine, she  actually a degree holder to be and she also a bride to be.. sangat-sangat impressive bukan plus her fiancee pun berkerjaya. engineer. well SAFREENA, you such a lucky one.


SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU. semoga kekal ke anak cucu.

its been a while since my last post. being home just make me less time utk bermesra with my lovely dovey incik blog. sorry mr blog.

so, whats the latest update. SHE-BECOME-MY-FB-FRIENDS.
 if anyone ask me why  and why did you...???? seriously i would say this IDK mannn...
i just feel one kind and that lead me to do such a thing. ye, i needa know how was she???.. how were her life would be after that hapen.?? did she live well as i do??? all this are linger in my mind for quite a time..
so sekarang i did know.. she really do enjoying her life with her new kekasih hati and she getting married soon... WOW. im glad to know that..serious im happy and really dead happy to knowing that.. alhamdulilah.  my guilty feeling towards her lesser after we had a chat last night.
so, i am not living on others kesengsaraan after all... alhamdulilah.


so lets kita buka buku baru. vanish all the sorrow.... SELAMAT BERKAWAN ZURAINI.

kawan im dying of missing you guys... to share those feeling what i felt right now. cepat pulang kawan. MALAYSIA is the great place.  missing u kawan..='(

alhamdulilah.. till the end.

paper c++ programing is over. so what should i say more.. weeehaaaa.. holiday is coming bebeh..
time flies realy fast, now i can proudly say that i am done with my semester 3 as a engineer-to-be...
completed all me lecture, done with all my test, quizes,project, assigment and habis sudah menggoreng paper FINAL. hihihi

so im looking forward for my holiday.... yeeehaaaa!!!!!!!!!!

new chapter.

tonight. take a deep breath.
take a little time to talk to HIM.

ALHAMDULILAH for the blessing, the laughter, all the good things HE gives.
ASTAFIRULAH for things that i regrets, the wrong doings and the mistakes..
INSYAALAH so i can be a batter person. batter than what am i before.
________________________________________________________________________________

DEAR ALLAH,

alhamdulilah atas segala yang dilimpahi dan dianugerahi kepada saya selama ini. the laughter, the joys and all the sadness Ive been through .  A great yet amazing family, a cool and awesome partner, caring people beside me.. kejayaan dan lesson that i had all this while. stuff and things that linger around me.. TERIMAKASIH TUHAN.  all this just make me realize how small and jahil i am di muka bumi ini.. i just can live as how i live now if not you YA ALLAH.
im not being a good muslimah. yes i can perfectly admit that. but i want you always guide and lead me to the correct path.sometimes, i was too leka and lalai dengan duniawi until i forget to thank you. Ya Allah. i was so sad and down when i think i do not have anybody to talk to, and cursing life when something did not turn out to be the way that i want it to be, Astafirullahalazim.
Moga kelekaan dan kekurangan ini akan hilang dan memberi kesedaran kepada saya yang You always be there for me no matter what. InshaAllah, I will always hijrah to be a better person, grand-daughter, daughter, sister, friend, wife-InshaAllah, Mummy-InshaAllah and whats more important is to be Your loyal and better ummah, InshaAllah :')

I love you, Allah!

 SALAM MAAL HIJRAH!

let's HIJRAH people!!!!!!

home alone journey.

BALIK KAMPUNG.

yesterday after my mechanics paper.. abah called and deliver such a plesent news to be hear.
abah-bagi-green-light-balik-umah-sorg2-naik-bus. hehehe i know, agak cliche bukan.

so, hear i am.. bermulalah journey cikzuraini dari batupahat ke pulaupinang.
the best part comes when mak rings me setiap jam to check my condition.. hahaha.. i can manage my self la EMAK... dun pampered me sangat.

mak pesan~ ANGAH, just bring along necessary thing sahaja oke.jgn kamu g agkut satu parit raja balik taw.

CLEO. this company me throught out my journey.

" december please be nice and fill it with bless and joyness batter than november does"

hey peeps!

its been a long since my last post.. sory for abondant you my baby blog.
current update! been in a hectic period... which is FINAL mode. so dont ask my why i am dissepearing myselft here. hukhuk,.
 btw, i just kill 3 papesS n still need to fight for other 2..

GUYS PRAY FOR MY BATTLE!!!!!

pathetic me.

You know what, I think Im turning into those girls whose capable of crying someone say they're fat. Oh so pathetic. I hope it would be just a short phase of my life. I dont want to be that oh-so-sensitive-about-weight bitch. :/ So i hope not. Thats all. 

BTW, to those yang celebrate this holly festival wishing u HAPPY EID ADHA.  

P/S.. mr comel. once again you make me soo freaking damn touched. terima kasih atas pemberian dan ingatan tulus ikhlas anda.  iloveitsomuchymuch.

 

i got some issue.-->

who doesn't????? first issue.... food..... can't stop eating....ahahaah..... second, time... can't stop wasting time........uhuh....... next, reading.....never reads.......demittttttt!!!!!!!!! im being sooooooo negative!!!!!!!!! WAKE UPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!

oh, my dear books,i think we should get married.. i need you to be my side 24/7. hihi
final is just so soon and i have not even complete cover one subject. damn!  please anyone GEDEBIK SAYA cepat..

 p/s--:> soo sweet of you sweetheart. * melting* =p

sweet x? sweet x?

jeleous.

Hello everyone!

Do u enjoy ur life today? I hope u enjoy ur life with things u like to do most.

well, currently i am still at home.*senyum girang*. being home is just like heaven.  with the present of  makabahadikalang just make me fell so good.but sadly times flies really fast, my cuti just left a week++ until to meet the end.=(  .

just now masa tengah berehat sebentar dari menelaah geomatic saya telah berblogwalking melihat hasil2 tulisan kawan2 saya di blog2 mereka. felt so proud+happy+JELES+jeles dan jeles sama mereka. why i said that??? it is because most of my friend having their great life di negara2 asing. being away from home beribu2 batu semata mahu mengengam segululung ijazah+ master di negara orang sangat2 menarik perhatian saya. yes. im damn freaking jeles towards mereka2 yang sangat super-duper pandai and get the great opportunity utk study di negara org.  well, im not being ungrateful person yang xtahu bersyukur dengan nikmat yang diberi tapi melihat kejayaan orang lain telah membuat saya berasa sangat2 jeles. well, if and only i get that opportunity to complete my degree di negara orang. i wondering mampukah saya???homesick xsaya??? am i still with him??? after all  ALLAH knows batter. what the best n suit me the most.  maybe my rezeki are written di johor--> UTHM. SO, alhamdulliah. 

now, time show 12.12 am. needa stop all this creepy stuff and get back to my book. STUDY!!!  plan to stay up. revise my geomatic and do a bit of calculus. hope HIM will make my works smooth for tonight.

final is just around the corner!

when he meet my parents. *wink*

yesterday the day when HE meet my parents for the second times. haha..

he looked fine in front of my dad and mum. guess both mum and dad can approve him as how i wished.

*hihi*

nothing special happen during that meeting session. i got to have my date in my own house in front of my family.. . korang pernah rase tak the feeling having a date with our kekasih hati at the same time your whole family are around and their eyes are on you..!!!!  haha korang nak tahu what's the feeling is... the feeling is gila awesome+segan+sweet..

<3

hope me and him will always be together and always in a track with the pleasure of ALLAH, AMIN.

a ladies who practically learn to be an engineer.

a few days ago just before i got to home me and whole family went to attend a wedding ceremony of my cousin punye anak which is my anak sedara.. woot.woot
so, as usual kalau ceremony my dad side it would be such a dull n boring event for me.. shame on me!
it is because i use not to be close to one of them.. in no way. cant be explain why but its goes that way since i were young.
 ok, cut all the crap lets back to the main of what i would like to bubble about.. ermm, refer to the title i put on. currently, i am studying in a field which can turn me to be somebody who be called as ENGINEER.

 when i was around with all my relative in the ceremony, masing-masing sibuk asking .. what i am up to, study kat mane? belajar ape? kanape look small sangat dari adik.. and ect.ect.. penat nak jawab. sebab bukan satu orang je tanye but almost semua orang yang i meet being asking me the same question..uhh. tiring and torture session.
its ok,  i did answered all the question patiently.. tapi agak geram jugak when those yang cakap haaa.. angah ambik engineering course ke. civil plak tu. lembut je tengok boleh bawak ke..?? ke mak abah paksa ni..??.
ohh whatt. please.. i choose this field is like how i wish too bukan sebab kene paksa dari sapa2. pftt. !!!And one more thing, salah ke a human like me be an engineer??  please don't look down on me or underestimate my capability of becoming an engineer. I've work hard to get into this field. so just, doakan yang terbaik semoga dipermudah kan jalan2 saya untuk menjadi seorang jurutera di masa hadapan. INSYAALAH.


lastly, i am not that kind of lembut2 punye type which xboleh buat keje.. i m ROCKING GURL!! bear with me. this is me.
 

IM CHICK OF CIVIL ENGINEER.. HIHIHI NO OFFENSE YAR**

hope the women inside the pic above is me!!! AMIN

HOMIE... :)

HEY ALL!

 i would like to scream out loud that currently im HOME bebeh!!!!  =))

actually before balik dah promise dgn diri sendiri  balik umah for this time bukan nak berholiday-ing o berpoya-poya tetapi nak struggle betul2 for my final.which is its about 3 week more to go.. so, please zuraini baby keep on your mind ye kne STUDY.STUDY.STUDY!!!

"dear November please be nice to me and vanish all the pain and sorrow that October  does"

semester 1 year 2.. till the end

yeay/ alhmdulilah!  greatly to announce that i've completed all my lecture for my semester 1 year 2 as a engineer to-be.. gaah.* clap2*.

i've learn a lots of thing and stuff through out this semester. in terms of friendships, love,life and not forgetting about engineering  study.. ok, jum brief satu2.


friendship
seriously, ive learn a lot. i admit that im not good at making friends. im sticky type person. since school life till uni life. i were always stick to those who i fell comfortable and probably with those who  have more or less like me, attitude, the way of thinking or maybe life style.. so,  that is why i ended up  xramai kawan especially malays.. sadly said, i am not have that kind of chemistry with malays.. smack me!! it is not that i cant be friends with malays.. its so untrue but i cant be so close  to them as how as others races. maybe after 11-12 years I've been kawan with non malays, this effected me to have this kind of condition..  buat malu kan  gedebik saya!!!SIGH  but please yar i still do have list of my best buddies here and dorg adalah melayu ok.. my bff ever AHLAM. she's the one and only my best pal ever existed.  the lesson i get is .sila pilih kawan yang anggap kita sebagai kawan bukan hanya waktu susah sahaja mereka nak share dgn kita n left us when they have a great time.. 



love
i have enjoyed my time with my love one. he keep on company me all the way through out this semester without fail.. hehehe thank you sweetheart! the lesson i get is berpada-pada lah bercinta.. always keep on eye on your schedule. put study on your top list.  


engineering study.
yar after 3 semester ive been study in this course, finally i get a clear mind of what is actually civil engineering study is all about.. lame kan.. hehehe so, after this kalau ada org asking me hey what did u do in civil. so i can proudly explain to those who asking without doubt...*clap2* plus i wanna warn spe2 nak ambik civil as their wannabe in future--> bersedialah anda untuk menjadi pak2 indon sama itu pak2 bangla yar karena kamu akn berjemur di bawah cahaya matahari di site.. duhh =( lesson of the semester is study hard+study smart= yeay!


life.
WHAT A LIFE!!! boredness melanda through out this semester even kekasih hati are always on my side/inside phone.. saya have to face the book n project 24/7!!!! oke tipu je cz kne divide 2 with face the phone.. hihihih
parit raja create a nothing-special-to-do-place- ever in the worl wide.. haa melampau x statement sye.. =) so, i turned out hari2 homesick nak balik penang sebab rindu nak berexcitement...serious jeles gle sama itu along di melaka.. tiap2 malam berfoya-foya with his friends.. mentang2 campus dia tgh2 bandaraya melaka.. so, tanpa rasa bersalah berpoya2 la dia setiap hari menghabiskan fulus mak abah .=((  lesson= life is like a cycle sometimes u on the top n sometimes u experience to be at the bottom.. yar rite now  saya lah berada di bawah cycle itu.. SIGH.. grrrr ='(

just left final to be sit then i can say sayonara SEMESTER 3..

P/S: sayonara parit raja!! balik esk..*senyum girang*

hello peeps!

  tonite im off to bed with my full tummy.. damn! spoil diet.. huh

wednesday story.

asalamualikum semua.
as i promised yesterday today im gonna use malays more than english.. yesh mission accomplised!!!!!

but frankly said today, i am pissed off by somebody..  ye2 kamu wahai sahabat ku..
seriously deal with this creature bring me up to depressed!!!
wahai manusia, please be matured and act like accordingly to the age of yours. i am freaking sick to cope with your crap attitude.. its almost reach my entire limit..

now i am perfectly realize why all the peeps around complaining all the times about you manusia. its all about your attitude.. sngat kebudak-budakan plus you are so sangat2 sellfish!!
ok, enough for this manusia story. we move on to the very pleasant news.. ALHAMDULILAH, saya dapat duduk TF lagi semester depan... YEAY!!

p/s: kekasih hati just told me that his cuti dibekukan.. SIGH.  =(
 no worries abang.. i"ll pray hard for you so your cuti will be cair..  boleh ke???  huk3

TODAY IS TUESDAY!

so what's tuesday brings up.. TIREDNESS!!
im tired bebeh..seriously, felt so much of exausted, dehydrated and sangat2 penat..
in other words shall i claimed it as the productive day for me.. naaa sound batter rite peeps..

today activities
  im done with my tacheometric lap. yeay! clap*clap.
 completed my c++ programing quiz and assigment* credit to me myself
 agama report perfectly siap!
 my work fied geomatic report finish.
 PRESENTATION CNI im over you!!! =)

so, what up for tomorow..??? ----> teater. im goin to act as a org buta.. wish me all the best peeps..

p/s= just realize that today im using english more than malays.. how come???  sebab today im not spend my time with my kekasih hati.. so lack of bahasa melayu today.. SIGH. sorry for abondant you bahasa  melayu. esk saya cakap bahasa melayu banyak2 ye.. =))

growing up.

i've lost my way for couple of times.

stumbled up upon a wall - could not see what is on the other side

seemed meaningless- is just like waking up in the morning just for sake of living.


does it sounds lame to you? but this is how it felt for me during those time.


i wanted and desire for that thingy so bad. i claimed that i've work damn hard to achieve it. but seem its not that enough to make it real. so, what should i do then???  put more effort??? just take it as the faith?


COME PEOPLE MOTIVATE ME!!!

emo freak!

i had such a bad period mood swing this time.. plus all thing and stuff around me are also contribute such a HUGE one.. guess what.. saya sangat emo. EMO FREAK.

 please stay away from me if not you are DEAD!  

can i declare that i miss you?

well finally today at 2.27pm you updated me what you up to lately after a long miscontact for a decades..  hahah ( see see comel this shown how much i miss u lah.. decades ok hehehe)

we borak-ing, gelak-ing and kutuk-ing on the phone. Gaah. saya puas!! hehehe
so here i wanna selitkan a lil bit nasihat kat u ehh.

• please dont skip your morning class dude!
• put ur alarm clock till max volume so biar bergegar teliga u tuu..
• health. concern a bit la brother. makan, tidO please follow schedule.
• i know u is like sangat2 pandai xpayah study just look the book n then can simply swallow it then muntah it when exam..bt bro, uni life style is different la.. assigment still mean a lot k. so, BUAT HOMEWORK!

ok.sudah nanti u pangill i mumy sebab bebel banyak2..
p/s= saya harap mr comel saya dapat jadi enginner petronas yang berjaya n tidak lupa akan saya setelah berhijrah ke oversea nanti. ~smoothes~

SERUAN KUBUR

Kubur/liang lahat Setiap Hari Menyeru kepada Manusia Sebanyak 5 Kali.

1. Aku rumah yang terpencil, maka akan senang dengan selalu membaca Al-Quran.
2. Aku rumah yang gelap, maka terangilah aku dengan selalu sholat malam.
3. Aku rumah yang penuh tanah dan debu, bawalah amal soleh yang menjadi hamparan.
4. Aku rumah ular berbisa, maka bawalah amalan Bismillah sebagai penawarnya.
5. Aku rumah pertanyaan Munkar dan Nankir, maka banyaklah bacaan Laa illaa ha illallah, Muhammadur Rasulullah?supaya kamu dapat menjawabnya.

P/S=  YA ALLAH. guide me, lead me to the truthness. im loss in the way.

GEOMATIC ENGINEERING..

yes. im done with my both test 1 and test 2 for geomatic. haish. i have no idea with what actually happen to this subject. the both test are not hardly tough but seem my lecturer are too straight in marking.. so unlucky me. =(
xpe, redha is the key. ALLAH always know what is the best for you. SO, less complaint please.

this few weeks and week after are really challenging. More test coming, more project to be complete, freaking much assigment need to hand up and FINAL is on the way..

roomie..

see the pinky bear at the coner tuu.. MR COMEL tenkiu!

MY LITTLE notebook.

actually kalau near exam katil ni xkan sekemas ini.. 
buku2 n paper2 will cover everywhere n saya tido peluk buku bukan bantal. he3

view from my window.

place where my dirty cloth been keep n a week after
yes. LAUNDRY.



SHOES BOX.



hell. sangat pack .

muhasabah diri

at this certain time i loss my focus..  lasyness has become my best buddies ever.. OMG, what happen to me recently.. test is just around the coner baby zuraini.. WAKEUP!

i just had my awful feeling inside.. awuch! i cant concentrate.. study2.. put on the top list.
i duwann to  kill my test paper.

just need to go back to the almighty ALLAH.  i loss my path through out my journey. lead me, guide me Ya Allah. ive been loss control all this while.  T.T


XOXO me. =(

do you fell so fucked up as me.. BERDARAH

everytime i get hurt, ill remain silent and act like nobody hurt me. I know that i might not be a god liar to pretend like nothing happen to me.. yar sometimes i do express my feeling by keep silent. For me that is my way to take care others feeling. .

im not say that im good people but sometimes i realize that i have take care others' hearts alot more that i take care of myself. EXHAUSTED!

and i think  sooner o later im gonna hurt at maximum point.

setiap kali saya sedih, saya akan senyap dan pura-pura macam tiada apa berlaku. saya tahu kadang2 saya tidak pandai simpan perasaan saya.  bagi saya itu adalah cara saya untuk menjaga hati orang lain. ya, dengan senyap.

saya bukan orang baik. tapi saya sedar kadang2 saya terlalu menjaga hati orang lain dari hati saya.. PENAT!

dan saya fikir lambat laun saya akan sakit sampai ke tahap maksimum.

P/S= harini nak buat 2version. malay n english sebab baru rasa puas.. yes im sastified.

mood owh mood.

currently mod swing.
fell like going back home.SUDAH. im homesick. please anybody motivate saya.
tons of assigment.testes waiting in a week. carry mark horrible. friends are trouble. time constrain.
I AM MISERABLE.

shit over u MR.C

sorry for the harsh tittle.

i cant stand it anymore.

hey u the one and only

the most respect person in my entire life i have

what on earth are happening to you haaa???

just tell my why??

i cant stand it anymore.

what else dint enough for u to make u think mature..

yar u are matured enough until sangat besar kapala bukan!!!!

have u forget mak abah lesson??

is it not enough for u

sekolah agama,  kasih sayang, money. every single thing u had..

please wake up bro.

leave it..

that fucking thingy just lead you to trouble.. serious a big one i bet u.

beg u this time. i know if u have a choice u would not choose to take it to love it bit please its not too late for u to throw it away.. i am not pointing over you after all.

p/s= we all love you. please love yourself more.

a night when we reunite.

thanks for the night.

thanks for the moments

thanks for the experience

thank for the drive

thanks for the mcd

thanks to be my side

thanks for everything DEAR.

i love the way u act

i love the way you talk

i love to be by your side

i love the way you are

what else haa..

p/s= i love u  <3

MY BAD!

 aint my fault?

 is it my bad?

 if i know u before i will absolutely fall for you.

 but unfortunaly  is not u that i meet before.

 every post that u vomit out just give me a great impact.

 yes, u touch my hear with all your words.

again. my bad. im sorry.

please fly and fly to the highest sky 

 grap you happiness

 you deserve batter.

much much batter...

i wish to have a magic power

so i can give all the best of mine for the sake of others.

but im the weakest person here

with the limit in everything

could not please anyone.

im sorry again.

 P/S= alhamdulilah atas segala nikmat rezeki ilmu kebahagiaan n segalanya YA ALLAH.

its been a very.VERY long.

salam peeps,
refer to the tittle, yes2.. since back from raya cuti i havent throw anything here.  because lately mr lazy come meet me and greatly become my very close friend.. HAHAHAH  lame!

so now i am goin rambles around about my routine here in my uni life. this fews week brings me up to depressed. totally im stress out!!! all the project, assingment, quiz,  peer presure all in one.. mix up! feel really need break for myself.
but im luckily enough to have my loves one keep on company all day long. TERIMA KASIH sweet-you-my suggar-honney-pie.



a few days ago i found out something yang sangat2 i dont know if it was a compliment or sebaliknya.
 perlu ke nak mention here.. i donk think so... DAMN!

selamat tinggal pulau pinang

salam semua!

really not in a good condition.. haa ahh..
nak balik johor. nak tinggalkan penang.
just hate it.


after 3 week being home. penyakit malas-mahu-balik-p.raja- sudah mula menular.
SIGH.
abah will send me off balik. w/o company by mak.. its ok, because i really doesnt want both mumydady susah2.


so, tonight is the last night nk peluk bantal nak golek2 atas katil sendiri, nak hirup udara penang, nak gaduh2 gn tings.. makan sudah tentu. nasi kandar terbaek!!!

its the time to say goodbye.. Selamat Tinggal PENANG. semoga berjumpa lagi.

p/s= todays emak birthday.  celebrate makan nasi kandar at noon n makan a&w at night..
          SELAMAT HARI LAHIR EMAK!!! ANGAH SAYANG EMAK

tribute to my MR. COMEL.. =)

 seram tak tittle. hehehe
ok as what i promise before in my last post. i nak buat special entry dekat seorg mamat poyo yg gler comel tu..
 siapakah my MRCOMEL tu.. i bet you know la who you are kn2.. 
so 1st of all, to those yg rse xnak bce just ignore entry kali ini okeh.

   actually, this entry i nak buat sebagai tribute  to my mr comel cause i damn freaking touched+terharu dgn special entry kat blog mr comel tu. serious beb. i bace blog you tu sampai my tears drop you knowww.. hehehe 
  bagus punye essay la kn u karang mengutuk i kat blog you tu.. puff >.<
btw,, kre dah terungkai la ehh, segala isi perut+hati+jantung+liver you kat i kn3.... ok this is my time.REVENGE..=) ..  ok lets the story begain.

   i know this makhluk ALLAH yg tersangat comel ini when i was studying in kuala nerang land> mara matriculation. we are in the same class ,S23. at first we were not that so close. nak pandang muka pun segan apatah lagi nk sembang.. am i rite comel.???.
manusia comel tu gedik lebih la malu dengan i.. cover sopan ble nak tegur .. siap gne saudari-saudara lg . memang xbleh blah ok.. . dgn org lain boleh je dia belasah gne aku-ko. lawak gler beb ble i teringat the very first time i dgn itu budak comel nak try to have conversation. memang comel.

so, after a while when we get to use to each other.. kmi dah agak boleh sembang2. maybe sebab ade that so called chemistry kot.. lagi pun mr comel itu adalah ikon+guru+tutor saya. maklum lah mr comel tu kn the best student in matric .. bangga beb i jadi anak murid u.. walaupun resul i hampeh tak macam u. hihi 
anyway, i shud always say thak you kat mr comel tu sebab tak pernah jemu bosan marah tergoda( i tahu u selalu tergoda kat i kn3) hahaha  time nak faham kn i konsep2 fizik yg gler susah mampus tu but bagi mr comel itu hanyalah secebis makanan yang hanya boleh GAP sekali gus.. hehehe  xiexie nie mr comel!

 so, when matric life ends. our relationship does not ends.. plus its keep on growing kn.. serious beb. 
you are the only guys yang pernah i kenal ever begitu baik sekali. tak kira time i down sebab result, sebab my homesick, sebab my heartbroken tu.. my mr comel tu always stand still behind me supporting tanpa penah complain pasal bill phone melambung, mata bengkak cause tak tidor malam sebab melayan cter2 sedih i,  on gltalk 24 hours teman i sebab i heartbroken dengan kekasih hati i, habiskn duit biasiswa dia just untuk datang umah i kat penang ni and he drive by himself dr shah alam even i xbelanja dia nasi kandaq even dah janji sumpah sume =)..( sebab xsempat kn. so kre bukan salah i kn3)

to my mr comel.. i xreti la nak karang puisi o watsoever yg macam you tulis kat i kat blog you tu.. but2, i ade secebis kata2 untuk u from bottom of my heart. ikhlas.

i tak reti nak cakap dengan lelaki except my kekasih hati la for sure. he3
tapi dengan you i boleh cakap non stop 24 jam, i boleh naikan volume suara i sampai maxx,
i boleh say out n share everything problem yg i had. its kinda weird kn.. haaa. u bagi i makan ubat guna2 ape..  just kidding bebe! no offense yar..=)
nanti kn beb ble i gaduh dgn hubby i i lari g umah you boleh x??? hahahaha
  sorry, to let u enter my heart its imposibble .
  you tahu reason itu bukan.
  bukan sebab you tak kurus, bukan sebab you bukan  polis, bukan sebab you xperfect.
  tapi sebab ...  well please go n get your life COMEL.!!!!


i will always pry for your kejayaan n kebahagian. 
hope u akan jumpa you own kekasih hati.
hope u akn jadi seorang enginear yg berjaya.
hope kita akan kawan sampai bila2.
hope u dapat datang my wedding nanti.
hope u dapat ank yang comel n cute macam i..

what am i feeling on this right moment???  kepada that so called org-putrajaya-tu-yg-ske-bce -sampai tsengeh2-tu.. sure you will know kn abg!! grrr

malam semalam.. cik zul the family went yum cha at kopitiam kat komtar walk. we really have our splendid time chatting, photo-ing. n eating.. its wonderful indeed. but its meaningless without you kekasih hati.. =P

so, here are the some moments that we captured yesterday.. again tanpa itu kekasih hati.. hahaha.

 p/s= kepada my mr comel di shah alam.. i sangat terharu dengan tulisan di blog you itu.. omg, you buat i menangis cause nk gelak+marah+touched tawww.. sebagai balasan esk i buat special entry kat u plak ehhh.. just wait for my revenge yar.. muahaha

takziah.

salam takziah buat kekasih hati dan family.

 AL-FATIHAH. this evening i got a text from kekasih hati said that his granny sudah pulang kerahmahtullah.  inalilah. I fell so sorry for him and also family..
 
 pity kekasih hati cause he just arrived putrajaya this early morning n does not have the opportunity to be together in the occasion of pengebumian. SIGH.

  p/s= ALHAMDULILAH. i still can breath n enjoy my every second with all peoples that i loves.

salam aidilfitri..

salam aidilfitri peeps.
huaaa i want to blog sooo bad. rinduu kekasih i incik blog ni sudah lama tidak berduaan. gaaah. =p. but there seems to be a prblem lah with my blogger so i cant blog properly.aissh. semakk. this is the best i could do so bear with me ya.

so let see, hmm.

yes yes.

raya update. raya was greaatt. like really great maybe the greatest yet kot. haha gile exaggerate. ** tipu2. actually it not what i mean..  kne tinggal n yet kne jadi maid.. ohh yes a.k.a  the best suri rumah tangga yang ada 3 lil child.. fuhh penat  entertain budak2 kecik makan+toilet+menanyi+ketawa+photoshoot... but it was awesome guys.. rse cam nak kawen cepat2 pastu nak ade anak yg comel2...** OMG! gatal** 
 but still i really enjoyed my raya cause kekasih hati  teman-ing me for the whole day.. pity him kne layan kesongehan me ini. hahaha  btw,  makan tak yah ar cakap. tatau mane datang nafsu tetibe lak boleh makan sepanjang hari. gila i cakap youu. spoil my diet.. hukhuk.

my 2nd raya still di penang but i was at home.. n yet still kekasih hati teman-ing me lagi without fail n jemu.. thank ABG! u make may day wonderful lahh.. but frankly said, i a bit terasa n sedih cause kekasih hati did not make his promise a reality to come over my place.. u know i was so damn crazy miss u like hell. SIGH. nvm i do understand. abg kan dah lme tak spend time dengan family. so, let you be with your family.. like what i do pegang always. FAMILY FIRST. no matter what. n yet i am not a part of your family lagi kn.. huhuhu

currently, kekasih hati nak berangkat pulang ke that place putrajaya. SIGH. why so soon.. hate the feeling of leaving hometown. TAK SUKEEEEEE...

 OK ABG.. WISH YOU HAVE A SAFE JOURNEY BACK.. love yar

if i have superpower.

i know tajuk entri for this times agak metaphore n out of box. but seriously, can anyone give me a superpower. anything will do. i need it so fuckingly.!!

if i have superpower.
i will make everything back to normal. like before the thunder.
i hope we do like before o just batter than before. can we???
i love u and i love u. i am so appriciate the relation of us.

i know, i misscounting ur feeling all this while. i am too bad for you.  but seriously i dont meant to hurt you. i was so dump until cant see how you hurt so badly n it all cause by me.!!!!! i am sorry again.
but seriously, you should know me rite. i wont hurt you, i wont obey ur feeling if i notice it will do so to you. about the jelecy.ohh god!! itu tidak perlu.
you dont have to waste you time being jeleouse on me and him. because what. me and him are nothing. we are nothing except a good friend. he treat me as his lil sister and so do me.
~bff, i am sorry.

BRAND NEW

big HELLO to me.

welcoming me here back to this brand new place.
the place where i will be rambling about anything n everything..

let kick start this new place with some nice warm story mory. as the old one, all fairy tales story are not ever allowed here, just a reality thought im gonna to throw out here…

the very 1st entry cam sengal nak buat wish list lahh.. hihihi

ok2 whats im craving the most at this moment. 

1. nak baju kurung cotton yg ade bunge2 cantik tu..
2. nak sandle vincci yg lubang2 yg cantik tuuu
3 SELUAR!!! need the most. karat pants.. sye nak!
enough2. baget macam billionaire plak .



 

sakit!

salam peep!
When i tends to fall sick. its really sick ok. huhuhu
thank you so much to all the people who took care of me when i were really in the bad condition. bidah,boy, and and also to HIM. terimakasih.
demam+selesama+sore thored+sakit gigi.
antibiotic+paracetamol+fever

medical cert. one day leave.

the phone STRANGER!

selamat berpuase peep!
hurm. today 11 of ramadhan. alhamdulilah im still can survive in this occasion of ramadhan.
ok. i am not gonna to throw words regarding the puasa thingy. but i was so stressful and a  lil bit of scared!! this is all because of u, STRANGER. the phone stranger.
hey u that so called HAKIM, who the hell on earth is u??? why dont you just mind your attitude n plis behave.
xde keje lain ke asyik nak mengangu org. hisssss.. keep on miscalling  me for none reason is just pissed me off ok..  shuh2. dah la banyak kali… org takut tahu x???
i have no idea who are u. serious. i have tried called you back but you seem such a coward pengecut dont want to speak up. haaa ambik ko dah tetibe dicop pengecut!! hihihi
grrrrrr..>.<
countdown= 2 more days

im sick of it!!!!!

em sorry, but u know what..  your attitude just make me pissed off. SANGAT!
why??? because i hate it when i figured out that you being so flirty out there men… i jusy dont like it.
ok. refer to abg naim— its a norm when a guys being gatal2 a bit o flirt2 a bit. sebab itu adalah mereka. LELAKI.

 but isnt too much ke?? you already have that someone to stick with but you still go n chiky2 dgn other girls.. dont you fell  bersalah ke o anything yg ptut…
ok xpe. cycle will cycle around. KARMA beb!

quiz1= -1.

happy fasting peeps..

  current mood= sedih n hampa

i done shit to my 1st mechanics material quiz 1. damn!

the question was freaking easy and because im too overwhelming dengan soalan tu. baget sangat confident
 lahh. without pandang n fikir2 lagi. terus calculate n draw mohrs circle tu…
 after left 1 minute bidah tegur, eh apasal zu punye graph macam pelik??
 ok, i know sumthing wrong must be.. gaaah. the sign should be positive laaaahhhh.
so, if starting dah salah then surely all the answer totaly shit to maxxxx…
then i was trying my best to adjust my answer, tp lecturer aim me and said masa sudah tamat.  n i ended up hantar lambat. so, kne deduct 1 marks..

i was thinking if sir nak deduct my marks.. then i will get sum value lahh for my paper. -1 instead of telur ayam.. hahahah

=(((((

i screw up the paper.

p/s= jgn terlalu over excited.

serabut.serabai.sememeh.

sumpah gile annoying kat situasi macam tu. geli, jijik, crapppppp!!!!! fuhhhh.
needa cares about others punye feeling. abis how about me??? sape nak jage pula??
yes2. i know im the weakest person yg lahir atas dunia ni yang tak tahu marah+maki+sepak+tumbuk+belasah org.. but pleaseeeee dont takes it for granted boleh tak??? i do have feeling jugak tahuuuu.. geram.geram.
tengok la satu hari nanti, bila aku sudah ada superpower. haaaa. akan ku gunakan kuasa bulan ku untuk menghapuskan korang2 semua.. muahahahaha

 ~my awful day.
p/s= guide me if saya tak tahu and tak reti. looser betul!

gcb.. FINALLY.i lovein it.

 OK. I know sayalah org terakhir di dunia ni yg baru dapat menikmat GRILL CHICKEN BURGER ,GCB itu.. sob.sob.sob.

disebabkan tahap kecraving-an saya yg sangat dahsyat keatas burger tersebut my friends took me all the way ke mcd.. tenkiu kawan2.*clap2*
me, adah, bida, shira, boy n amir telah menyerbu mcd di maghrib hari and had our dinner there. lepas kenyang baru terhegeh2 pegi solat..*ishhhh2

ok. comment about the new stuff. rangking i were give 4 stars. tapi too bad tak boleh lawan the prosperity burger tuu lagi..

p/s: this one fella asked me this.

” what do you think of  long distant relationship?? boleh bertahan ke?”


for me is does not matter lah. just put on trust, faith, and full of love. thats all…
betul x??? i guess so. sebab i’ve been through it anyway. hehehe
insyaalah. if he is mine than he’s will be mine forever. betul x abg??? hihihi * smack head* dush2. =P

randomity##

hoyeh. hooyehh..
yay!

MU won yesterday
credit to MAN UNITED for the glory you made..
*** kalau my love get to know this sure berasap nie*** hihihihi sory abg!!!

ohh man!!!! saya sudah lupa diri neh.. now officialy,starting from now i declare myself sayalah penyokong cleasea.. im a cleasea fan… hahahah (evil lol)
just drop by here wanna bagitaw yg actually when we updated our blog ni secara otomatiknye it will uploaded in the fb… helll yaaaa.. kenapa jadi macam ini meh??? camna nak tukar balik setting niiiii…  help me pliss
thts mean my lulu little diary ini akan ditatap oleh the whole pple out there.. xske3.!


p/s;
sepatutnye,
sye kne study.
kne settle kn project yg damn + gile + nak mati/mampus hard itu,
kne siapkan slide show utk presentation esk..
needa hafal point2 nk muntah depan class esk..
tapi,
saya sedang happily berblooging dan berfacebuking lagi…
hahaha.. lasy bumbum betul!!!!
ok sudah. bye. catch the other day.
jab2, just nak bagi tahu lagi.. saya akan menikmati GCB malam ini. hureehhhh

serious. im sick!!!

what kind of sick did i having off??? HOMESICK. seriously kali ni memang betul2 homesick. currently my mood kinda swing a bit. sebab ape???  rumahsakit tu punye pasal… puffff!!!!
kinda long enough to say im not in this state. i mean rumahsakit @ homesick ini. tapi disebabkan petang jumaat yang hening itu telah membuatkan zu tertidur dengan lenanya. penyakit ini mula menyerang.. then ble wake up dari tidur mula la my mood pun jadi sewel. teringatkan umah, makabahadikalangalong. semua2 pun teringat.

ohh myyy. this so called sick dah mula menyerang. so, ble thu syndrome ni is about to attack, i cepat2 go and take my bath, asar n do all my stuff. hope sydrome ni will fly away just like that..
 but unfortunately, mak pulak kol. aiseymen!!!!! =(  abis spoil semua my effort. when mak just started to voice. my tears dropss… arghhhhhh… mak ni mcam taw2 je ble org tgh windu. SIGH.
so, i claimed myself ok ble mak tanye but practically n mentally I AM NOT!!! i am so homesick at this time of period. very.

ok, penyakit ini berlarutan lagi sangat sekarang.
anybody please, ade ubat that can treat me???? saya nak……..



p/s; sem ni dah jarang homesick sebab i do enjoy n be entertain by my love every sec of time.. thkz alot my dearest abang!!! i owe u a lot.. tapi, somehow homesick ini lagi power la.. hehehee

im the LOSER!!!!

homesick!!!

see.see. i lose again .. sigh. why i cant get rid this sickness far away..  before kick start this sem hari tu,punye la bersemangat nak buang perangai homesick ni jauh2. but then….. SIGH  =(        i hate to talk with my abah ble time mood homesick datang. dengar suara abah pun bleh trus rase sebak. i lose with my feeling..
just know recieved an call from mak. i tried my best to tahan the feeling but haish.. i just cant you know. gaah.* smack head* . even almost tiap2 hari contact tapi still this feeling keep hunting me.. and its killing me..

 plan to balik this weekend dengan along. but my schedule suck!!!! monday class pagi. jumaat sampai tengahari. actuallty boleh je nak balik. tapi abah cakap no.no. nanti ble balik sekejab tahap kehomesickan saya akan lagi  mengunung tinggi. then i replied, no abah. angah promise lepas balik ni angah tak akan balik umah seribu tahun..hihihi pastu ape lagi abah terus brainwash.. angah dah 20tahun, dah besar, kne kuat, xsayang. xkesian kat mak abah ke.. kalu balik mak abah risau sangat ble time naik bus..n bla bla bla then selepas kne brainwash i start to think n realize i were so bad to my mum n dad. always bring troblesome to them. mak abah angah mintak maaf. =(

he turns 23 years old…

HAPPY BIRTHDAY abang!!!!!

semoga panjang umur dan murah rezeki. all my prayers are always with u darling.
muhamadothamanbina.rahim- 30 november 2007 . the day that i first meet him. happen in pizzahut prangin mall. funny tho. almost 3years we have been in a relationship. this year i got him a gray tee as his brithday present.. hope he will like it as much like i do.  love.love.love
23 tahun? you are getting older. never mind. i sukee.


so here there are some wishes, OMG, rasa macam nak lempang. padahal tiap-tiap hari masage boleh je bagi wish.

semoga lagi matang
semoga lagi gemuk cikit 
semoga berjaya
semoga lagi comel
semoga lagi sayang saya
semoga lagi rindu saya
semoga kurangkan noty2 o flirty2 dgn makhluk lain ehem** sangat perlu ini!!!!!
okay dahh..

happy birthday. have a blast one sweetheart!

new sem. new room. new rommie.

hye peeps.
  
currently im in the second year of my deegre making process. aha. half way yo. so, as usual, i got to really look forward this sem untuk build my pointer up. yes.
   ok. talk about new sem, this time dapat bilik atas sekali, 3rd floor you know. penat mendaki. but its ok, kali ni i got same room with abidah. alhamdulilah. finally dapat jgk satu bilik. then the other two was new to me. one is kak yat, xpoliteknik, 24 years old n the other is miza. currently doing her diploma dan bermur 19 tahun.
 
  schedule kali ni not bad. just monday and tuesday je yang sangat2 pack n non stop class start dari 8pg.. kelas malam pun just de satu je. tuesday night for computer programing class. TETAPI credit hours agak heavy. 3 subject for 3credit hours=  mathematics 3, machanics material n geomatic. FUHHHH. frankly say, its serious gonna kill me. then for 2credit hours= pendidikan islam, creativity and inovation, computer programing and my teater class only cost 1 hour credit. so, total credit is 16. eventho credit hours sikit but seriously all the subject plus the makmal was freaking hard man.. trust me. =(
 haaa, cakap pasal makmal. THANK GOD this time im not stuck dengan all the boys. nasib this time bleh pilih grup sendiri.hureeh. so, my team mates adalah 2girls n 3boys= wantian, peizhe, cheng fung, william, and jiawen. walaupun all of them are chinese. im enjoying myself with them rather then satu group dgan malays plus semua lelaki yang hanya thu membuli me. ohh nooooooo….=( im not racist o what. but i just be me. THIS IS ME.
 

   finally, harap this sem i can really working out dengan lebih bagus in my study, self-improvemnt n ect. ” HOMESICK” no.no i will definetely not allow it include in my little lulu dairies.

p/s: alhamdulilah ata semua rezeki n permudahkanlah jalan ku dan sahabat2 ku di sem ini,AMIN

very pleasant day!!!

happy.happy day..  a lot of good news i received today. very pleasant to be heard..
i woke up this morning, then terus make up my mind xnk g keje.. gaah. sgt cruel. but it was seriously an awesome decision to be made.. hehehe after that i received a call from eunard that my service just needed until ESOK!!! waaaa.. serious pleasant pleasant sangat untuk dengar.
malam pula. i know abg dapat cuti… and he’s on the way back to kedah.this is really great news.. hehehe.
so, today my day was running smoothed. n i just realize that. actually my abah n mak was worried if i decide to continue my degree in UNITEN.. ermm.. what should i do then.. UTHM o UNITEN..???
P/S.. alhamdulilah untuk segala nikmat dan rezeki.

SUNDAY..

SUNDAY is today. as usual weekend i needa go for work but somehow i xpergi.. abah xde as weel as along. both out of nowhere. so, i have no transport.. lastly,  i endeed up at home bersama-sama my sis alang for the whole day… hahaha super duper syiok wooo..

what i do for the whole day long kat umah.. haah.. menghabiskan masa plus electric bill… hurmm why did i said that. i was on9-ing for the whole day.. layan all the clips from britney spears and taylor swift..  hard die fan for both of them!!!! hehehe  neway, thanx to youtube that menjadikan me seorang kakak yang pemalas today.. hahaha
then at night, i receive one call from eunard..
eunard: ah zue, can you do me a fovour?? the company wanna ask you to cover as a product advisor at tesco. starting tomoro till 7th june..
me: WHAT!!! ermmm.. ahh.. hussss
eunard: please help me la ah zu.. just about 2weeks nia. somemore we not enough people to cover at tesco. just 11.30-8.30…
me: ok la..


OHH ZURAINI!!!!! i was practically doesnt want to do it again.. run as a product advisor is so tiring plus must be so cakap banyak with those customer.. hissshhh. apasal la bleh say yes just now.. *smack head*




p/s. YA ALLAH engkau berkatilah segala rezeki yang telah engau berikan kepadaku serta ahli keluargaku. AMIN.
britney and taylor. nice voice. niceblond hair. pop vs country music. just love it!!
    

tiring DAY!!!!!

hello peeps!!!
here i am to throw my bubbly words again.
 ermm. harini kne keje. then my day was full of boringness. dont like it!!!  ohh but. i brought a new dress today.. sempat lg shop even tgh break.. hahaha. i beli 2 helai- 1 for me and the other is for my bff AHLAM. i wanna give her as brthday present yang dah lepas beberapa hari. smack me for this kinda late AHLAM.. but2, i know you will love this dress so much as i do.. hahaha both dress i brought from F.O.C butique.!! thank for the SALE.**
GAAH. this morning right after i arrived my working place; quensbay i was totaly damn SHOCK!!!! nak tahu knpe.. i received a text massage from ABG. yesh. dia send me a massage today after his silentness sickness. ok. i do happy.  but still have this kind mix of feeling..  SIGH

*** this the dress that i brought today… hehehe AHLAM is gonna be yours soo