exam week entry.

Why on earth time is passing so fast now?Like  seriously

esok exam. good started of HUBUNGAN ETNIK. 
buat past year till wanna vomit out..
btw, i love get to know this kind of subject. its kinda how you study SEJARAH those back in high school. makan-makan text book sampai perut buncit. esok pagi muntah-muntah atas answer sheet..  hahaha,,  please peeps, this is not a good way untuk jadi a good yet cemerlang student ye.. 


readers please, pray for my success ye.. semoga dipermudahkan urusan saya di exam hall esok pagi.  AMIN YAR RABBAL ALAMIINN

 

here comes to the worst part..

1. woke up in the morning and the clock tick at 5 dan kau realized kau masih belum baca half of the book, and your freaking exam is 3 hours away. ni memang rasa nak bunuh diri.

2 bila kau bangun tidur, with groggy eyes and messy hair and dry saliva, wishing that you can pull the duvet over your body and go back to sleep, but you can't, coz the alarm on your phone kept yelling and you realized you HAVE to get up to STUDY. tolong la!

3.  when you realized that you have been betrayed.rasa hati seperti ditikam, jantung seperti dirabak, dada sakit bukan kepalang. 

4. bila kau bukak account facebook kau and you realize manusia  yang tiada related by blood dengan engkau tapi manusia itu juga yang kau gila-gila kan sedang berkasih-kasihan dengan org lain. ini sudah boleh buat adrenaline kau memecut laju dari adrenal gland and stimulates your heart rate dan kau akan rasa PERASAAN itu apa???

5. looking at all the tragedies that happened all around the world, and realizing there is not a single thing you can do to help other than pray for the best.

6. berada di penang and you know the facts is you need to say goodbye to you lovely family sebab kau kena balik PARIT RAJA..  macam nak gedebik-gedebik diri sendiri. dush.dush.

7. kawan kau yang sangat kau hormati buat tahi dekat kau and kau rasa macam nak bagi selipar dekat dia but hakikatnya kau sangat lemah bila berada depan dia.

another post.

  I should memorize my book, doing my revision, calculate my numbers and analyzing my stuff but right here and right now I'm happily sitting and facing this wide screen to waste my time. =( 

anyway.

semalam dan semalam apabila saya bangun dari tidur. i felt so f-ing great. wanna know why?? the concrete reason is that saya berada di rumah. IM HOME!  ok, it such a cliche statement. tapi i life great here in my home and i eat great also. =P 

and today since my mood to rambles is here, saya mahu senaraikan aa few of best feeling in the world.  in my world of course and the worst also. ok, here goes nothing.

THE BEST FEELING

1. woke up in the morning and you saw the clock hits before 6.00 am.. its the best feeling ever sebab boleh shower di pagi-pagi hari.wooo sangat-sangat nikmat. believe me people it is heaven.

2. malam sebelum exam after you have completed your study dan mahu tidur. i dont know why, its alwas make me happy thinking i finished my studying and is now ready to perang esoknya. but ia sangat rear to happen nowdays coz usually its hard for me to complete my revision till the moment i step in the exam hall.. DAHSYAT BUKAN!

3. bila you and your family lepak-ing while watching the tv shows and having a such of conversation, i mean a happy and enjoying conversation berserta dengan gurau-gurau manja. MasyaALLAH.  it was fantastic moment. kau macam nak berdoa mahu tuhan hold that moment sampai bila-bila. 

4.  bila engkau berada di bus station Batu Pahat while holding a ticket untuk balikkampung  realizing the fact that in 9 hours time i'll be back in PENANG!!! 

   

5. when your best friend say to you thanks for helping her out, and she said how lucky she is to have you as her best friend. 

6.  bila emak and abah yang kau sayang separuh nyawa sangup bersusah payah untuk engkau.  umpamanya, sangup drive sejauh  penang-johore bila dengar engkau menangis teresak-esak sebab mahukan physically support dari mereka. ohh. saya sangat bertuah.

7. being around babies makes me feel happy. playing around with them, peek-a-boo with them, even putting your finger at their palm and watch how tight they hold your finger is a good feelings.

8.  lastly, when it comes to your kekasih hati.  he act so lovely to you. He being so understanding on what you desire.  dan bertahan saat-saat PMS kau menyerang. 

ok, this is all that i can thing for now. needa back to my book.doing what should i do for a student like me should doing. STUDY LAHH ZURAINI!!!! 

tengok muka-muka ini bagi saya satu kuasa. pahala pun bertambah.

I've been taking quite a long pause over here. neglecting my place without a single word. Bukan bermaksud sudah lupa diri. but just being so much  busy. Busy melayan masalah-masalah hidup.

  Actually there is a number of entry that i wrote. But dont think i suppose to post it out kerana ia sangat berbaur emosi. EMO FREAK entry. So all the entry i give my draft list to swallow it up. =( all can i say, i had gone through such a bad time in my life. But, alhamdulilah! i fell much batter today with all the support given. TERIMAKASIH kepada my amazing yet fantastic family, dearest kekasih hati, and the coolest friends for all the trust and advise and also the support. I am nothing without all of you guys. 

MEET THE END! 

ALHAMDULILAH.

Sometimes I wish I could just be a little kid again.  So when life gets tough you can just play pretend.  I wanna go back to when MY LULU LALA LAND did exist.  When your daddy was the only boy you ever kissed.  When Disney World was the best place to be.  When the only movies you could see were rated G.  When your biggest problem was learning to write your name and people didn't change...and your friends were the same.  And every time you were sad or you had a bad day.  You could just run to mommy and it would all be okay.  I wanna go back to no hurt...and no pain...just laughter.  When everyone always lives happily ever after.


Berikut adalah senarai doa-doa dari sunnah yang boleh dibaca ketika kita menghadapi keadaan yang sangat sedih.

Maksudnya:
"Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Yang Maha Agung dan Maha Lembut, Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Tuhan ‘Arasy yang agung. Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Tuhan langit dan bumi dan Tuhan ‘Arasy yang mulia"
(HR Bukhari 7/154 dan Muslim 4/2092)




Maksudnya:
"Ya Allah, rahmat-Mu aku harapkan, janganlah Engkau serahkan (segala urusanku) kepada diriku walau sekejap mata, perbaikilah segala urusanku, tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Engkau"
(HR Abu Dawud 4/324, Ahmad 5/42, Shahih Abu Dawud 3/959)
 

Lagi doa dan bacaan ketika sangat sedih seperti di bawah.
 

Maksudnya:
"Tiada Tuhan yang berhak disembah selain Allah, Maha suci Engkau, sesungguhnya aku adalah termasuk orang-orang yang dzalim."
(HR Tirmidzi 5/529 dan riwayat Hakim yang disetujui dan dishahihkan oleh Dzahabi 1/505. Lihat Shahih Tirmidzi 3/168)




Maksudnya:
"Allah, Allah adalah Tuhan-ku, aku sedikitpun tidak menyekutukan-Nya"
(HR Abu Dawud 2/87, Shahih Ibnu Majah 2/335)

dimanaFOKUSsaya?

it's 0417 am. Im still awake. away from my bed. Just had a mug of hot choc and a pack of biscuit. Needa stay to complete my last minutes study. ohh, im am not ready to sit for this morning test. I'M NOT READY!

# rasa sangat menyampah. Sick of this creepy thingy. itu so called kawan baik telah MEN-disasterkan hidup saya. So, terima kasih kepada that so called kawan baik. ANDA MEMANG TERBAIK AH! U got me into trouble. U distract my focus. end up im gonna kill my test paper. =;(

YA ALLAH, BUKAKANLAH KE ATASKU HIKMAH-HIKMAH MU DAN LIMPAHILAH AKAN RAHMAT KHAZANAH MU, WAHAI YANH AMAT PEMURAH LAHIPENYANYANG. ~amin~