update.

Home smell really good.! Home food taste amazing.! Home people were so great.!
Finally, I’m back people. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =))

It’s a routine activity when Im home. Borak-ing with my mom. We have our breakfast together after abah left for works. So, as usual mom will update me with all sort of new story mory include new gossip that linger around her. We just have our splendid time together . Gaah. I think readers can define why am I so sick when I am away from home. korang faham bukan that so strong bond me with my family that actually created my homesickness. So, saya bukan anak manja o anything that you guys think. It just the bond, I mean the special treat from my parents that tide me up.

ok, abaikan. When kitaorg borak-borak that pagi, mum seem worried about alang future. alang gonna sit her SPM this year and yet She did not have a solid plan for her future plan. Actually prestasi alang bukanlah teruk . Cuma dia tidak ada specific minat I mean a specific course that she want proceed di menara gading kelak.
. When I was in her age that time, saya juga tidak terlepas dengan dilemma sebegitu. Basically my family tidak lah begitu kisah akan course atau bidang yang diambil but after me and along sudah lepas ke menara gading, emak seem mahu anak-anak nya ber variety dari segi kerjaya. insyaalah Along gonna grad as a accountant and saya pula insyaaah lagi dua tahun will entitle as a civil engineer. So emak wants alang and adik menceeburi others bidang like cikgu.

Ok back to my old time. When i was the age of 17. I never dream of becoming or involving myself in any of engineering courses. I was thinking that I will proceed my study in any of non-science stream because I was too obsess with sejarah and language subject. But I think I am born for science. All the tawaran that I get are all related to science subject. Matriculation with science stream. And diploma UITM also with science stream. So, due to that I put a lot of effort to create a love for science subject especially physics. But after awhile I get myself fall in this stream. i love numbers and love t deal with experiments.
For me, masa depan adalah unpredictable. Yes. We need to plan out our plan but ALLAH is great. He know what is the best for you and which path is suite you the most. Well, advise to alang. Think properly. Sometimes we just need to follow the flow. Either it go left or vice versa. But we seriously need to work hard to achieve the kejayaan . Alllah haya akan membantu umatnya yang berusaha untuk berubah. Insyaaalh,angah will definitely pray for you success. But hope to see you as a doctor wannabe. Heee =)

quick updates

been busy lately with all the workloads.
tons of works need to tune in.
that is the solid reasons why i am not come online-ing these fews day.

balik esok. tak sabar. serious. sangat tak sabar.  all i wanna do right now is just to be at HOME.
 ~ home sweet home~

1.       Hydrology lab report

2.      Geology lab report

3.       Analysis structure tutorial

4.      Revise hydraulic

5.      Paper work ( Chinese debate)

6.      Compile all the reports

DONE

HALF WAY DONE

YES. I can live 4 days without anybody because BOOKS and WORKLOADS are my friends. HEH! =(

p/s : a bunch of tahniah. KEAKASIH HATI qualified to final.

ALONE!

                        need to suitable myself to this new environment.
                        be all ALONE in this huge world for 3 days.
                        all roomates are GONE!
                        dont you ever ask me where they go. =\ grrrrr
                                                                                    MAK, i wanna go back home!!
p/s: thank to KEKASIH HATI! company me all day long. infact you are invisible but i can fell  you.   *gedik*

what hurt the most???

 WHEN,
YOU got 4 days leave and yet you can't even think off going back home. BALIK KAMPUNG!
 YOU  saw everyone is talking about BALIK KAMPUNG and you can just put on a fake smile and say hati-hati ye balik kampung..
 YOU received text massages from everyone asking you about BALIK KAMPUNG and its left a big hole in your heart.
 YOU saw all our roomates busy packing and start to say bubye to you till you fell like noone is care about you.
so, have a great holiday ye kawan-kawan. thank you for the treat.
p/s :  im homesick till i skip my meals today. sorry stomach for not being nice to you today. my bad!
p/s/s: i wish I can do something to ease out my HOMESICKNESS.

Listener. Am I capable becoming a good one?

This couple of week I just had entitle my self  becoming a un-certificate counselor. Just because
 of this bunch of people who I called a friends of mine.  They wanted to share and they pick me as their listener. Im feel good about it and glad they chosen me.  Listen to this Boys and girls with all problem make me wonder . there is so much of worries and problems around tho it
just as simple as MAKWE –I-MERAJUK-TAKNAK CAKAP.  Well,  sometimes we need to share those unease feeling inside to somebody so that it will make us less burden.  Betul tak???  So to those people that have chosen me, thank you for the trust given.  Insyaalah saya boleh mendengar and terus mendegar Even saya pun dibelengu dengan masalah-masalah but I don’t mind to listen yours.  

p/s=  I got this
problem that I can’t dealing with-à
HOMESICK!   Please help me cure this… =(

0012

ALHAMDULILAH. with all the opportunity given. 

I need some
pressure, family actually never push me since im here, they rather think that I
know how to be one. the good one..Give me some pressure, those book realy work on me.

TERIMA KASIH to those writers. the books was superb amazing.

 

Student life, VIVA
ZUE! <3

 

P/S : My night were
actually perfect with my sweety pies

love

breath. think. and move on

life isn't as easy as i thought. there's a wheel that will moves up and down. only strength can hold us. only patient can calm me down. only God can brought me down. as i stand on this earth, as i my heart is still beating, i will continue and going through my life till the wheel stops by itself. there's a fear, there's a lost that i have to faced. it will not gonna make me stop from reaching my path, the one that i already choose. it takes 20years to walk in this path, there will be no turning back. there may be a junction as i walk in front, with God bless, please give me the true way for me to continue my journey. cz i'm too tired to lost my way. it is okay for me to tripping as i walk, to have bleeds and cuts caused by thorn a long my way. it is nature to fall, and to have thorn in a bunch of fragrant bright beautiful roses accompanying me in order for me to reach the island of happiness of mine. i hereby, humbling myself to please pray for my destiny. to what i wanted to have, to live, or to be with. with all my respect to everybody, i apologize to anyone who i might hurt their feeling.

 

2358

i miss HOME!!  T.T

ABAH only you!

ABAH have done so much for me. Since I was young he took care of me on his very best way. Some people might  say abah were so protective  when it got something to do with his anak-anak.  Until those people said abah was too pampered his child. But he does not cares those suara  and he always ensure whatever he did  anak-anak is his priority.

 He always fulfill all my wishes,  the things that I desire the most, the food that I crave for. He so amaze.  I could not find others  abah like you.  You are irreplaceble.

My dad is amazing. sebab....

Abah korang penah tak iron baju uniform korang time sekolah?  My dad done for me. He iron my school uniform everyday since kindergarten until form 5  * except my tudung coz he failed
doing that*

abah korang penah tak bangun malam-malam just to ensure tiada seekor pun nyamuk  berani makan darah korang? Well my abah did. He always wake up while others are sleeping just to check your selimut must be in a good condition maksudnye selimut tu mesti kene melitupi seluruh badan supaya nyamuk tak boleh attack.

Abah korang pernah tak hantar bekal makanan waktu recess time sekolah.? My abah did.  He will send my food during my recess time and company me.  I miss that moment.

Abah korang pernah tak bagi korang ambik lessen then beli korang satu skuter tapi tak bagi korang bawak pergi mana-mana ?  ye. My abah did that. He will only let my on the road when he feel like he wanna let me, otherwise tak boleh .bahaya.

Abah korang pernah tak escort korang dari belakang time korang bawak skuter pergi sekolah hari-hari.? My abah did that too.  He will not let me go alone!

Abah korang pernah tak fetch korang dari sekolah hari-hari naik kereta peronda polis and korang terpaksa duduk sebelah orang salah sambil digari. ?My dad always did that.* ashamed*

Abah korang pernah tak hantar and ambik korang time korang nak pergi date dengan kekasih hati?Well  that is my abah. He willing to fetch me wherever I waana go.

Abah korang pernah tak travel and drive sejauh penang-johor sebulan berapa kali just to send you off to uni?  My abah did that. He rather not to believe all the bus drivers no send me off.  * sabar jela*

Yesterday is the climax. I realize that my dad had done so much for me and I forget to thank him.

Semalam abah made my tear fall. He drove from penang straight to johor then back to penang  just to send  off  my stuff.  Actually abah boleh je post. Tapi Because he heard my tears when I inform him that I left my stuff at home then he promise me that he will brings my stuff by his own.  He made me touched again. *teary* I cant stop this feeling of missing him.

Abah  I have short of words to describe how much I love you. I’m always being manja and mengada  when it comes to my homesickness. I am sorry. I made much of worried  to you and emak.
ABAH,you're everything to me.. You love me for who I am and you're the one who understands my feelings and swear I love you the most.. I cant describe by how I love you and how you meant for me in front of you.. only god knows how I love you.., the day you were born and get the chance to meet emak and got married and having me as your daughter. i love you.<3

 

say NO! erm yes. sure. ITS SUCK

why is so difficult to say NO!
such a week person.
 inner voice wanna scream out loud.
but sadly the mouth voice out the other way
is like heart and mind having such a big war.
been trap and can't move even a inch.
im hurt here. ='(



saya tak nak ikut boleh tak. saya tak suka macam tu tahu tak. saya tak suka dan saya tak nak.!!!!!


p/s: because of this saya telah di attact oleh penyakitrumah. SIGH * teary*

OWH CRAP. is there any stoping point.?

frustated. exauted. infuriated. with the faculty. their system and management is just sucks to maxxx... sorry to say but im too dissapointed. the process is slow and unsystematic. they did't plan our jadual and clases well enough until it clash like hell. unfortunately me myself need to face it. AND ITS HAPPEN EVERY SEMESTER!!!!!   its like no ending point or solution for it. duhh =(
hope all this crap will ending soon. and i can happily started my class with no other heck feeling.
FREAK OUT! when i read all ur FB comments and status. try to act cool.
p/s: ABAH will come and visit me this jumaat. * HAPPY*

BACK TO SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!

its 0713 am. and im still here updating my blog with my breakfast. hope everything will be fine for me to kick start my new semester.  morning class on the first day.MONDAY. seem bad luck huh. NO.NO. i will take it as a catalyst to start my clases for very first day of the week..

Nothing is impossible!

Oh please God, stay by my side, give me some strength, some thoughtful thoughts, push me harder.

 

DEAN LIST!!! GOGO.

 

 

p/s: receive some motivation voice by my besties AHLAM. thank buddy. hope we will play our role well this sem. insyaalah.

p/s/s: kekasih hati started his class today. hope he will do fine too. jiayu2 ABG!

bye PENANG. and hello JOHOR

 I dont like this feeling, when the clock seems to tick very quickly. holiday is ending and the dreaded Monday is coming. I don't like this transition. It's like being given candies, with a due. I mean like a library book. The candy have to be returned when semester ends. :/ And this crap happen EVERY year.TWICE. Isnt there any stopping point?
 ok. i know i should not saying this all this crap. i should raise my hand and say thank you ALLAH for giving this opportunity again for me to continue gain as much knowledge as i can.

hope with this new spirit my penyakitrumah homesick will not hunting me. shuh2. i don't need you fuckingly.

currently at NOVA HOTEL.  with present mak abah along feel completely comfort in this earth of johore.
please dont seize this feeling of mine. oh clock please be nice to me.. can u clock your self as slow as you can..


p/s: tomorrow kekasih hati will off to kuala selangor for two weeks. hope he will be fine there. * need to do his stuff check list *

• towel
• toothpaste n brush
• shirt 
• sport shoes
• complete uniform
• baju melayu
• sabun n shampo
• stationary
• wallet