Assalamualaikum
* stare at the blank page for 20 seconds- literally*
I am feeling so awkward right now holding the ipad trying to blog after soooo looong hiatus or MIA. I have been neglating my own blog for my own propose and it has been splendid. That being said, I am back to unfold some matters that might be smething worth for cherishing or sharing at the very least. cheewah. I know i know i might sound a lilttle offensivehere.
I know cerita dah basi but now I have time to sit down and write. Yeah, I'm married lady now. hard to brain kan? I'm having a hard time as well. The career development, the resposibilities. its kinda hard for me adjusting. But having the best partner a.k.a husband in life make everythings batter. Tho i'm laking in so many areas, he's still could manage. Thank you, Sayang.
Oh and as for the wedding itself, it was a very simple occasion. cant help the fact that I'm a very simple person. But I've enjoyed every moment of it. And to those who made it happen , only Allah knows how much I love you guys.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Young miss engineer
assalamualaikum.
So here I am, almost 4 month since I last wrote and almost half awake trying to tap away some epic post to add to the list of ramblings on this blog. but, fail occured every time. Current life was very clear that I am upgraded myself to a new career lady. Being one, as a civil engineer to be exact was quite challenging especially to a lady. I am not saying we ladies not fit to this position. However, as we know that to be a successful civil engineer we need to be as tough as male. Going to site construction, climbing all those under construction tower and structure really need some kind of spirit.
From my childish years, how I reacted to engineering and all. I always asked myself, asked Allah, "why me? Why engineering?" But today, I get the answer. I know, I have a strong will in everything I do. Even if I have to do something because I was asked or forced to, I will give my best. Of course I will cry a lot along the way, but that's just me overcoming fear and stresses. But Allah eased everything for me; ok results, graduated, and finally got a job offer a week after I attended the interview. Like everything, starting from my Foundation year until today, I am called a Design Engineer :) Alhamdulillah.
Working and living by own really make myself independent. Now I do realize that what I've been practicing in uni which is travel by own and alone are something more like preparing myself for real life. So, Allah make things for a reason rite. I'm enjoying work now, I really do. At least what happened in recent months really cleared my vision on why my career is important now. But sometimes I feel empty. I miss exam, lectures, doing projects, lab work. You know that busy routine somehow occupied your life.But itulah kehidupan, once you lose it then you will start appreciate it more.
By the way, there is a new phase waiting me so close. too soon to announce I guess but I'm preparing now. =)
So here I am, almost 4 month since I last wrote and almost half awake trying to tap away some epic post to add to the list of ramblings on this blog. but, fail occured every time. Current life was very clear that I am upgraded myself to a new career lady. Being one, as a civil engineer to be exact was quite challenging especially to a lady. I am not saying we ladies not fit to this position. However, as we know that to be a successful civil engineer we need to be as tough as male. Going to site construction, climbing all those under construction tower and structure really need some kind of spirit.
From my childish years, how I reacted to engineering and all. I always asked myself, asked Allah, "why me? Why engineering?" But today, I get the answer. I know, I have a strong will in everything I do. Even if I have to do something because I was asked or forced to, I will give my best. Of course I will cry a lot along the way, but that's just me overcoming fear and stresses. But Allah eased everything for me; ok results, graduated, and finally got a job offer a week after I attended the interview. Like everything, starting from my Foundation year until today, I am called a Design Engineer :) Alhamdulillah.
Working and living by own really make myself independent. Now I do realize that what I've been practicing in uni which is travel by own and alone are something more like preparing myself for real life. So, Allah make things for a reason rite. I'm enjoying work now, I really do. At least what happened in recent months really cleared my vision on why my career is important now. But sometimes I feel empty. I miss exam, lectures, doing projects, lab work. You know that busy routine somehow occupied your life.But itulah kehidupan, once you lose it then you will start appreciate it more.
By the way, there is a new phase waiting me so close. too soon to announce I guess but I'm preparing now. =)
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Graduate, come on down!
assalamualaikum.
and so it has ended.
The last few days have been sort of weird. I've finished everything that I need to graduate...so now I'm just waiting to do so, I guess. For the first time in ages I feel like I legitimately don't have that much that needs to be done. Not living in Random for upcoming days just seems bizarre. =(. I didn't do well in last paper, which was supposed to be easy but I ended it miserably. Knowing the fact that I had no chances to redo it, or to say "I'm gonna do better next semester" anymore. It hit me really hard this time, everything is finally at the end.
Anyway, its all wrap up. I'm looking forward to build my career in engineering field.
and so it has ended.
The last few days have been sort of weird. I've finished everything that I need to graduate...so now I'm just waiting to do so, I guess. For the first time in ages I feel like I legitimately don't have that much that needs to be done. Not living in Random for upcoming days just seems bizarre. =(. I didn't do well in last paper, which was supposed to be easy but I ended it miserably. Knowing the fact that I had no chances to redo it, or to say "I'm gonna do better next semester" anymore. It hit me really hard this time, everything is finally at the end.
Anyway, its all wrap up. I'm looking forward to build my career in engineering field.
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
My beautiful mess
I am so near to my finishing line. Alhamdullillah.
After my dissertation, projects submission, Viva presentation and now left one paper for my final examination all will remained as histories. Histories for girl who are struggling doing civil engineering.
I not sure of what awaiting me right after my graduation but there is something sure that I am gonna miss attending class, preparing for exams, completing those projects and dealing with my-super-homesick illness. This life I am having now, is going to end soon.
Whatever life that I will be facing afterwards I hope that I can spare with it.
Thursday, May 23, 2013
RANDOM.
Assalamualaikum.
I cannot believe that I have not written anything here for sometimes. Almost 2-3 month I supposed. Finally, here I am reporting in week 12th of my final semester.
The past month have been tough. Settle-ing stuff/ things in order to entitle degree holder isn't easy. Project, assignment, presentation and others matter really challenging. But Alhamdullilah, Allah made all easy for me.
Back to the topic. Very random one. I would like to rambles about my thought which is about Judgmental.
Well, in this world no matter how smart or brilliant we are, we have no right to judge others. Everybody has their own identity which brought variety in this world. Bak orang kata, ragam manusia lain-lain bukan.
Each of us are different. It just because we came from different background, and different upbringing. For me if you try to put someone into your own judgement that's mean you're trying to look down on them, showing arrogant and superiority. That's not a good attitude. And sebab tu Allah pesan suruh kita selalu hudnazon, which means berperangsaka baik.
It just my thought anyway. and also self reminder to be exact. Because there is something that bother in my mind that I think it might lead me too be judgmental. owh, and don't let all of our (few) good deeds all this while go to waste just because we cannot control the little evil in our head.
I shouldn't be here actually, thesis writing and other project are seek my attention now. So, till I have time to write again. =)
I cannot believe that I have not written anything here for sometimes. Almost 2-3 month I supposed. Finally, here I am reporting in week 12th of my final semester.
The past month have been tough. Settle-ing stuff/ things in order to entitle degree holder isn't easy. Project, assignment, presentation and others matter really challenging. But Alhamdullilah, Allah made all easy for me.
Back to the topic. Very random one. I would like to rambles about my thought which is about Judgmental.
Well, in this world no matter how smart or brilliant we are, we have no right to judge others. Everybody has their own identity which brought variety in this world. Bak orang kata, ragam manusia lain-lain bukan.
Each of us are different. It just because we came from different background, and different upbringing. For me if you try to put someone into your own judgement that's mean you're trying to look down on them, showing arrogant and superiority. That's not a good attitude. And sebab tu Allah pesan suruh kita selalu hudnazon, which means berperangsaka baik.
It just my thought anyway. and also self reminder to be exact. Because there is something that bother in my mind that I think it might lead me too be judgmental. owh, and don't let all of our (few) good deeds all this while go to waste just because we cannot control the little evil in our head.
I shouldn't be here actually, thesis writing and other project are seek my attention now. So, till I have time to write again. =)
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| my motivation booster. |
Thursday, March 21, 2013
5th week.
Assalamualaikum
I saw someone post this quote and I found it really suits my situations.
" when life pushes you down, push it back"
Recently, I have a hard time to proceed my final year project. I think the thing that I'm working out is too high compare to my standard. I don't know for others, but for me it is. I haven't started any lab work and it's already week 5. screw me, unproductive me!
Sometimes, I feel like quitting also. But,I fought back with my determination to make my parents proud of me and I start to slowly calm down to work even batter. When things like this happen when only 4 months left before graduation, should I say I feel like giving up again? Big NO!
To self,
Please be organized, be better and wake up from la-la land. Wake up from daydreaming and face the reality. It's actually reach to the very near-to-end stage. Just try the very best and leave the rest to Allah. =)
I saw someone post this quote and I found it really suits my situations.
" when life pushes you down, push it back"
Recently, I have a hard time to proceed my final year project. I think the thing that I'm working out is too high compare to my standard. I don't know for others, but for me it is. I haven't started any lab work and it's already week 5. screw me, unproductive me!
Sometimes, I feel like quitting also. But,I fought back with my determination to make my parents proud of me and I start to slowly calm down to work even batter. When things like this happen when only 4 months left before graduation, should I say I feel like giving up again? Big NO!
To self,
Please be organized, be better and wake up from la-la land. Wake up from daydreaming and face the reality. It's actually reach to the very near-to-end stage. Just try the very best and leave the rest to Allah. =)
Thursday, February 28, 2013
cope effectively.
assalamualaikum.
How you respond to life’s little tragedies is what shape your character. Crap come in your way sometimes, and you have to deal with it and move on. That's called life.
It's already 2nd week of my final semester and I still stuck without any productive progress with my final year project. Problems hit here and there. The issue is everywhere, I have to deal with the materials where-to-find, the identifiable chemical involves and the broken equipments.. ='(
But hell yah, I've promised I will look problems positively. Let's grow with problem.
How you respond to life’s little tragedies is what shape your character. Crap come in your way sometimes, and you have to deal with it and move on. That's called life.
It's already 2nd week of my final semester and I still stuck without any productive progress with my final year project. Problems hit here and there. The issue is everywhere, I have to deal with the materials where-to-find, the identifiable chemical involves and the broken equipments.. ='(
But hell yah, I've promised I will look problems positively. Let's grow with problem.
Times of great difficulty are times of great opportunity.
Trouble and problems are necessary sometimes, in order to push us forward even tho it in evils way. Because it eventually they eventually end, and the best part is the lesson and strength we gain from them last a lifetimes. Life is fair.
I'm hoping that I will be more thankful and less whining after this if another problem come and hit me. And also I want to pleasure every last moment and enjoying the people, places, objects and event through out my way for what they are. It's not about changing and achieving all the time but it's about being and appreciating. May Allah keep this going on feeling and make it ISTIQAMAH.
Sunday, February 24, 2013
First week
Assalamualaikum.
Funny how in a blink of eye we're and funny how we go through each day, nothing change but when we turn back we can notice there's always a different made. Sometimes, everything is so different. Like I mention before time travel faster then light.I fell the time were move too incredibly fast. And this week mark a day where I am going to go for my final year as undergraduate student. =) This semester is fucking challenging. I have lots of task to be fulfill. gahh. When I think back of what I have gone through out the way, I need to be proud of myself. *pat pat myself
First week has gone, I already feel the hectic and the hard life is waiting me. With the pack time table I have be more prepared mentally as well physically..
Morning - at lab to complete my lab testing for my research purposed
Night - attending class.
..............................................................................................................................................................
last tuesday I meet my Penasihat Academic which is Dr Chan. She one of my lecturer this semester. I wasn;t that sure how the conversation started, but I remember when she was asking me either to continue master after degree or not. Then I asked her about how she manage her hectic-ness and become success?It's so amazing I thought it would be ask for some tips. So she shares with me about the top secret of her success :
I know this is like cliche. Everyone know to be success we need determination. But refer to Dr Chan terminology, we need to be realistic and aware of all those struggle, obstacle, pain and etc etc while we are on the way to success. Not only determine to success but also determine to walk through all the pain and obstacle as well.
2. Work Hard.
We all born with same level of IQ, what just differentiate us is our hardwork. when you put extra hardwork through something you will have extra than others who put less hardwork. That make sense rite. We don't have to work 24/7 but at least we know what is our priorities and manage our schedule it will be enough.
It is wonderful to have a Academic Adviser like her. Who knows, one day I could be as successful as her. At least, in managing my daily works and feelings :)
and I believe on this,
Funny how in a blink of eye we're and funny how we go through each day, nothing change but when we turn back we can notice there's always a different made. Sometimes, everything is so different. Like I mention before time travel faster then light.I fell the time were move too incredibly fast. And this week mark a day where I am going to go for my final year as undergraduate student. =) This semester is fucking challenging. I have lots of task to be fulfill. gahh. When I think back of what I have gone through out the way, I need to be proud of myself. *pat pat myself
First week has gone, I already feel the hectic and the hard life is waiting me. With the pack time table I have be more prepared mentally as well physically..
Morning - at lab to complete my lab testing for my research purposed
Night - attending class.
..............................................................................................................................................................
last tuesday I meet my Penasihat Academic which is Dr Chan. She one of my lecturer this semester. I wasn;t that sure how the conversation started, but I remember when she was asking me either to continue master after degree or not. Then I asked her about how she manage her hectic-ness and become success?It's so amazing I thought it would be ask for some tips. So she shares with me about the top secret of her success :
1. Be determine.
2. Work Hard.
We all born with same level of IQ, what just differentiate us is our hardwork. when you put extra hardwork through something you will have extra than others who put less hardwork. That make sense rite. We don't have to work 24/7 but at least we know what is our priorities and manage our schedule it will be enough.
It is wonderful to have a Academic Adviser like her. Who knows, one day I could be as successful as her. At least, in managing my daily works and feelings :)
and I believe on this,
"whatever is on your plate got there because you say yes to it"
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Bring it on, Final semester!
It has been quite long time where I haven't update anything here.Life go on and of course there's ups and downs. I think time travel faster than light and i fell time is moving incredibly fast. Agree enough?? So, basically here I am in my final semester.
Final semester is seriously not something that we can't take it lightly. All the subject projects and especially the final year project needed extra effort. I need to come out with my daily routine time table soon which i guess it will help me to cope my life. So people, wish me luck for this final lap and may ALLAH always ease my way. ahh, by the way all my classes are at night.. and day time is fulfill with lab work. pathetic me.
Final semester is seriously not something that we can't take it lightly. All the subject projects and especially the final year project needed extra effort. I need to come out with my daily routine time table soon which i guess it will help me to cope my life. So people, wish me luck for this final lap and may ALLAH always ease my way. ahh, by the way all my classes are at night.. and day time is fulfill with lab work. pathetic me.
Tuesday, December 25, 2012
it eats you slowly.
ASSALMUALAIKUM.
It's study week this week and this time is so strange where I did not go home. Bravo zuraini!
I've got an issue here. But, by pour everything here it seem not alright.='(
Oh my Lord, please ease this bad feeling, please purify all the intentions and please cleanse my heart.All i do and did is about YOU and your credits.
It's study week this week and this time is so strange where I did not go home. Bravo zuraini!
I've got an issue here. But, by pour everything here it seem not alright.='(
Oh my Lord, please ease this bad feeling, please purify all the intentions and please cleanse my heart.All i do and did is about YOU and your credits.
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